Saturday, August 14, 2010
dear peigin,
a shooting star flew past at
i know on this very day, you just broke down and cry. I think you have tried hard to conquer your competition fear and you know your problem is confidence, but not hard enough. everytime on the runway, your body and mind just couldn't find that equilibrium. I know you cried not because you are a sore loser, but purely because you are utterly disappointed with yourself, the disappointment that you always let coach down, the disappointment that you let yourself down.
Because you know that this maybe your last competition and you really want to make a difference but you couldn't. You do have high expectation on yourself, but perhaps if you can be given a really last chance, take things easy. You know yourself better. If you need to start at a lower ht, just do it. Get the confidence booster and you will just do fine. Peigin, is all right to cry because i know it has been kept inside for too long. the accumulation of the fail attempts in competition over the past 2 years has worn you out. You know, you are always the best and most determined person in my heart. I'm sure you will finally excel and leave with no regret.
Since this 2 years of haunting experiences have haunted you for so long and you have finally let it out, i'm sure things will just get better. For i have faith in you and believe in you, you ought to pick up the courage and BELIEVE and have FAITH in yourself. You know you are capable of it.
jiayou peigin! I will always be your number 1 fan!
with love always,
you, yourself, peigin.
6:49 PM